I wish I could figure out why blogging is so hard for me right now? I used to be a lot better about posting. I'm tempted to let this be my outlet, a place to vent my frustrations, fears and troubles. I really don't have anyone that I can share this with right now, but I am afraid that it will be too depressing to read my own words, to see in print all of the pain I feel and the sorrow I deal with everyday. I just don't have another outlet. I can't write what I feel at work because I would spend all day crying. Sometimes it is just easier to keep it all inside.