sigh!

I think I might be in yuk!

???

Congratulations for Julie and Andy on their engagement!!! I know you will be very happy together.

I used to think that you needed to know someone for 2 years befor you should marry them. I definetly don't think that anymore. J & A have only been dating since Halloween and they knew that this was right. The rest of us talked about taking bets on when he would ask since Christmas. Everyone just knew.

So why can't I find that? What does it mean when you have two really great dates with someone and you talk for hours at a time on the phone but they don't seem to want to see you any more? And being the retarded girl that I am after date one I can already imagine marrying this person and having a family and all of that stuff.

I frequently wish that I could just turn my brain off and sleep. I lie down and wait to sleep, usually because I am very tired, and then my stupid brain gets started and I toss and turn because I keep thinking about things that are bothering me and end up very unhappy watching serious crap on TV just to drown out my head.

I think I'm going to have a good long cry now.

at least midterms are over

I feel like I haven't really got into this semester yet, like I'm just floating through my classes and not not really being there, that makes me very nervous. I'm at the point now where I have to start pulling together major papers and I can't remember what was discussed in lecture yesterday.

At least I have a new waste-of-time hobby. I am addicted to Craigs List Rants and Raves, I have to read all the new posts. I also have done several surveys posted there. I'm not sure why I must do this but I don't think it is a good thing. Maybe if things go well with Matthew and I have someone new to think about I won't need to read about the lives of strangers.

sewing up a storm

There are rumors of a graduate ball/fancy dress event in the near future. This is great except all of my fancy dresses were made for a Smoggo with a very different shape then she has now. So I have been pattern shopping and sale watching and today the stars aligned and all the pieces came together. JoAnn's had a pattern and fabric sale today so I picked up Simplicity 5207 and some fab-O red satin. I have never had a red party dress before and I figure it's time. Also if things work out right I may even have a date for the fancy dress event, how exciting is that.

I also picked up my new glasses today. They are not as good as the frames that Heidi picks for me but I think they are ok.

I just had pizza and it is sitting like a brick, I think I will take a walk. Even if it is 11:30 pm.