hmmmm

Well the papers are completed! The two take home finals are looking ok so far.

Now if I could only figure out what's happening with my love life, or lack there of.
Things seemed to be going really well and now not so much. I'm trying really hard to be patient and see what's going on. I wish I could just know where things stand.

I forgot

I forgot to mention how much better sitting in front of my computer for hours on end is when I get to listen to good music. My favorite radio station from Portland is now streaming and they improved their format. So many thanks to 94.7 KNRK. Gustav rocks! But I miss Jayne, I wonder what she and Higgins are up to these days?

Well, one paper down! Too bad I still have 1 paper, 1 project, and 2 take-home finals left to do.

Good note, I might actually be able to get out of here in 2 years. Can you believe it? 2 masters degrees in 2 years? It seems almost impossible. It probably won't work out because nothing good like that ever happens to me. But it is a nice thought. Plus I will never have a class with GGW again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just have to turn in my paper on Wednesday and he will email the final to us and we email it back to him when we are done. That makes me so very happy.

good show

I just had a jazz band show. I forgot how much I enjoy playing with a jazz band. We had a lot of fun and the soloists were amazing! It's too bad that the CUA community wasn't aware of the show, they really missed something good.

Then Liz and I went to get a Papa John's pizza. Is there anything better then PJ's garlic sauce? Together we feed off each others need to procrastinate and do so as much as possible. Yesterday we went for chinese food and ended up going to H & M were I bought a really cute outfit for Fiona. Then we went to Maggie Moo's for shakes, then Barnes & Noble to look at magazines. Finally we came back to school and took naps.

This morning Liz, Julie and I went to Ikea for breakfast and a little shopping. I got a cute beach bag, a set of wine glasses, a squeegee, a canister, spice jars, a citrus zester, popsicle set, a collander, and stacking gift boxes. Plus we had the fab-o $.99 breakfast and I bought a bag of D'aim candy; sooooooo yummy. A lot like a heath bar, but bitesized.


*side note--why are men so hard to understand?

only two weeks

In two weeks I will have survived my first year of grad school. But I have to get through the next two weeks. Let's see 20 page paper due tomorrow, 15 minute presentation on Wednesday, F&A project and 8 page paper on Monday and 12 page paper Wednesday. Plus two take home finals, to be completed no later than May 6th.

one weekend, a million ups and downs

Friday was one of the worst days I've had in a while. I can't believe that Dr. C asked Dr. W to talk to me about my attitude. I've never been anything other than friendly to him, I also practice hard and try my best to be a good section leader. So where does he get off being upset at me about something and not even having the guts to address me personally about it? Then Dr. W has his own diatribe about my abilities to speak publicly and write and how these are really not at a grad school level and perhaps I should see a councelor and the writing center. If he doesn't believe that I can make it why was I accepted into this program and how have I managed to pass all my classes last semester? I can't stop thinking that I should just give up. I can probably get a job in a music library without both degrees but if I do that he will have won and I can't give him that satisfaction. I need to see what my grades look like after this semester and really think about things then.

Yesterday I went to the AMS meeting. I'm having trouble recalling a more boring experiance. The morning papers were ok and lunch was good, even if Esperanza didn't remember me. I took a class from her last semester for pete's sake. The business meeting was oh so dry we were running late and then there were 3 more papers to be read. I just couldn't take it and left after Sam read his paper.

I had a good reason to leave. I got to spend the afternoon and evening with Matt and his friend John. We wandered around Annapolis, such a cute town, and had italian cream sodas and I got to hear so many stories about them and their crazy friends. I really want to meet these friends after hearing so many unbelievable stories. I kind of wish that it would have just been Matt and I. I definetly think it's a good thing that he wanted me to meet one of his friends but I would also like some "alone" time with him, if you know what I mean. Because nothing has happend so far and it seems a little weird to me that we've been talking for nearly 2 months and nothing has happend so far.

But I keep reminding myself that he just got out of a marriage and he probably needs to take things slowly. And I figure that if he isn't rushing into having sex that he isn't just looking for a rebound relationship, but something long term. I could really go for that.